Yesterday was the #100 day i know her, guess she dunno also.. She flew to China yesterday for interview and it went smooth. 100 Days of friendship yet she flew wif-out telling me. Sad hor? Haha.. but she is flying back on wed. Did not know till Andy told me last nite lor. Haiz, tis kind of gal call fren .. Sigh. Tis few weeks will be super Bz. Bill finally opened and told Andy bout the promblem.. he wans the problem to be slove within 1/2 mth @@'. Can be done but .. i'll be a walking zombie after tat. Lolz .. Really need to be focus rite now. Gonna collect magzine soon.. Feeling kinda sick today.. been running back and fourth to the toilet since morning . Argh.. gonna be sick again ? Stomach not feeling so gd. Does heavy dinner + giant sugar cane + beers + supper = sick ? Lolz.. tat was wat i had .. Many many rubbish in my stomach.. haha. Long day today and tml morning @ 3am have to go woodland.. Not much work done today but gonna stay focus. Bath and off to work..

Stay focus, yes focus..

Yesterday missed svc.. was burning the midnite oil doing my work thingy.. when it was more or less done .. it was ard 6am could not tar han anymore so went to have abit of shut eyes.. Woke Michelle up at 6.15am, Lol she sound so funny.. Could not bear to disturb her from her beauty slp, so i suggested i called her 5mins later. After 5mins, she still sound the same. 1/2 awake still dazing in dreamland. Hehe.. but she knows she will be ushering and tat gave her strength to woke up. I was also kinda tired and nxt thing i know it was .... 9AM ! Forgotten to called JunRong.. ><', grab my hp and called her.. informing her i cant make it ><' . Went back to slp putting my alarm to ring in 10mins.. Nxt thing i knew .. it was bout to reach 1pm. Bla i'm late !!Was searching high and low for my comb and nose-inhaler.. Argh.. cant find them ( juz found my inhaler like, 5mins ago) so i head to the kitchen, saw there was B.fast but i was late so i left wif-out eating. When i reach office, started working .. working .. printer siao siao, took bout 1hr to finally get it to print.. than working working ... than printer hang.. argh.. than working working .. Poof, printed 2.5 / 7 today gonna finish the rest.. so i better be on my way to work If not . Lolz.

Caszlin if u are reading this .. have u made up ur mind ? Cfm going ? Well, if u are going tell me ur flight etc once cfm. =)

Afternoon went to SPH for meeting, had afew magzine issue to tok about. Whole meeting was bout 1Hr + . Went to meet Michelle after tat, was abit late .. ><' anyway when we reach Expo we went to BK to grab smthing to eat.. Aww .. was kinda hungry cos whole day ate abit of fried rice for B.fast. Soon after meet up wif most of them. Jonathan was limping when i saw him .. Ouch he sprain he foot. When he pull his pants up and his whole ankle was swollen. Ouch X 999 for him. When we reach, there was already a Q so we ate our "dinner" as we Q-ed. 1st time for me to eat in a rush .. Haha.

Finally the Q was moving.. when we were in, JunRong and Michelle were searching left,rite,up,dwn for seats.. than we found seats at the rite side.. B4 we know it, worship has began. As usual worship was gd.. and they played the song i wanted to hear "Rain down". Gosh, really like tat song.. As i was worshipping, i look to the left and realise the seats were not totally filled. After several mins i looked at it again. Bang the place was filled wif ppl and guess who i spotted despite the thousands of ppl.. I saw my parents.. i was not v.sure but i tink it was them. I was glad the manage to come.. The moment has arrive Rev. Ulf Ekman sermon.. He tok to us bout 'Seasons' may sound like nthing special but tink deeper.. For more detail, I urge u guys to watch the vid at CH webby.

After service .. JunRong came up to us and share abit of wad she thought bout the sermon and we prayed as a cell group. I'm feeling i m a part of it already .. hehe. After tat, everyone was rushing off.. cos it was 11.15 the last train was bout to leave.. so we hasten our footsteps and left for the MRT.. Michelle wanted to eat so we headed to Espland and guess wad we ordered.. YES the prawn noodles..ate it afew times and i feel nthing special bout it but still we ordered it. For the 2nd time in my life i shelled prawn for gal lor.. she better be honour bout it. After *supper* we were walking aimlessly .. i wanted to see the Merlion cos i nvr see it B4.. so malu ><' nvr see b4. Finally got to see it.. Lol, no biggy but still got to see it.. haha, Sea breeze was cooling. We chat for awhile.. well actually.. was afew hrs. Lolz. Both of us grew tired and headed back hme. We went to the bus-stop to wait for her NR8. She insist i took NR6 go hme so we waited.. Soon her NR8 came and i was left alone waiting for NR6 .. as i waited several cabs went pass but i juz waited.. Finally NR6 arrived.. i stand up and flaged .. nxt thing i knew was.. the bus went pass me... #$%^&* Bla no way i was gonna wait for another NR6.. so i hail a cab and headed hme. So much for taking bus -.-'

Nxt date wear a skirt =P

Been awhile since i last Blog.. Dunt really have the time.. Bz working and worming my way out of it.. Lolz. Last sun went back to church after a long .. long .. longggggggggggggg ... time.. Whole service was great. The sermon somehow was toking to me..* in a way * .. hehe.

Wed, met up wif Michelle and JunRong (her cgl) for movie. Watched *Season of love* Nice and touching show. Will advise all to watch if have the time.. After movie Michelle had to go for bible study so tat means left me and JunRong. Lolz, She shared wif me on how to re-dedicate my life to him again. Thou most of the stuff i know already but still wanna thank her for sharing it wif me. She maybe younger than me but she earns my respect ok !.. Knowing this weekend Rev.Ulf Ekman (They told me his sermon was ^^ ) will be coming but not sure if i was able to make it due to work.

This morning, i recieve a called asking me to work which i knew about and ask bout Friday. I had a suprise of my life.

A: Tis fri meeting bout the magazine muz go.
M: Than the Bill how? Also need to open rite ?
A: Sat or sun than open, the meeting muz go.
M: Than after meeting..? Nthing ah ?
A: Ya, nthing..

Praise the Lord, 99% i'll b able to make it.. Let's Juz Pray everything works out this way.. =)

Do not give up, ur prayer will be answered.. Juz pray

Today morning suppose go SPH to pay for the river ang bao newspaper we took but woke up late in the end tml going dwn. Than had lunch and nua at hme.. suppose go Andy hse to open bill than head to SGK to collect $$ but by the time finish eating lunch so late liao. Than Andy also not in SG, go cruise.. Damn Sianz. Dunt feel like going to his hse today but have alot of stuff need to be done. Well, juz get it done once and for all.. after blog shld b go work work work. Nvr seem to have a rest day since .. Been long time since i tok to 'him' really pray he will lead me through tis time.. Dunt wanna hurt others or get hurt.

The Lord's Prayer
Our Father which art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth, as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us out debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptationm but deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom and the power, and the glory forever.

Amen.

Today was a long day, and was actually late on V.day.. Suppose to meet her at 12.3o for lunch but i was still hme at 12.. Bad hair day.. Finally reached city hall at 1pm and we headed to Marina Square for lunch .. walked almost whole of Marina than decided to eat at cafe cartel. ( bleach, city hall also have lor. LOlz ) After lunch we walk ard looking for gifts for her frenz. OUCH.. static, during the whole time in Marina Square whenever our skin brush each other, we had a slight static.. Lolz, Keep disturbing her by brushing my hand against her's. Lolz, headed to suntec still looking for gift and browsing handphones. My handphone need to change lor.. really zzz liao. When we were at Carfour .. i saw my Ex.. @@' but nvr call her, cos she was working.. Went dwn carefour to get a drink.. and headed to Raffles City. She still looking for gifts but duno wat to get for her frenz.. most of them celebrating their 21st tis yr so muz have special gift ma.. Than her agent called her and told her she leaving at 5.30, she muz submit some form so we went to orchard taka. Took train frm City hall to orchard.. Walked to Taka, pass the form and went to cine watch movie.. Wanted to watch 'Season of love' but the seats were not gd so watched ' Fun wif Dick and Jane' .. Overall was a funny show.. worth watching .. hehe. After show headed to Herren shop for gifts again.. but nthing ler.. Mayb in her mind she already had something to get for them.. but tml than her pay day so nvr get today. Than headed to Paragon wanted to take a bite but wasnt hungry so walk walk.. Wow, alot of ppl Q-ing for seats.. everywhere we go .. we see ppl Q-ing to go for dinner. We werent really hungry so we walk walk see see.. headed to Wheelock place to have some dessert but she cant recall which shop and all the shop had long Q.. so we headed to have some ice-cream. After ice-cream we headed to MRT.. and we headed hme.

Thx for celebrating V.day wif me..

#100 done.. whole nite slp abit nia. . cos i know it's V.day wanna give her the best gift ever.. Thou it might not be a biggy.. but i hope she likes it. Argh.. 11am + liao .. sianz.. almost 1/2 day gone.. and i m hme. hmm .. shld i go out.. argh.. going siao .. tired yet.. haiz. bla another v.day pass......zz

Today fireworks was not bad, but did not watch the whole thing cos counter had no one to look after. Watched abit only.. tml is last day, will she come dwn pei me? Doubt so.. rather not ask and she come dwn and give me a suprise than .. i hope she comes and doesnt..after work, went over to maxwell to have dinner wif collegue. Than head over to Checkers.. find rest of them..Saw her playing cards wif Joe, she doesnt seems unwell to me but i cant assume. . . Than we started drinking abit.. played afew round wif her .. she lost and she drank than John told me "Her one green tea" so i tried and it really was lor .. Zzz.. Poured Chivas into her cup but she refuse to drink frm it. Than John said "She sick la" so i drank her cup.. but somehow, she still drink Chivas green-tea... bla. She juz hate me rite? After finishing all the drinks we left for supper... Had a 'ToK CoCk" session .. John send everyone back.. She sat on Qi's Leg in the front sit, John driving, Andy, Joe, Corren, Michelle and Me had to squeeze behind.. Michelle sat on my leg lor @@' Heng she weigh 40kg.. Corren shld sit on Andy leg lor.. than got more space =X.. 8 Ppl in a car.. Heng is Bmw if was some other car.. sure break dwn.. Lolz. Send her back 1st than Qi, leg was feeling abit numb even b4 Michelle sat on my leg cos was standing most of the time. Anyway finally got backl hme.. eyes wanna close liao .. Juz tong abit.. 1 more day till River ang bao over.. Lolz

Last day liao.. Haizzz

Last nite was raining again at River Ang Bao. The usual not much sales but over all was tinking how not to get wet. Had no umbrella when going to take our dinner.. the SPH promoter lend us her umbrella. Guess wat, both her umbrellas are HELLO KITTY design !! @@' so choi and bright pink lor.. so pai say. After dinner the crowd came and was as Bz as a Bee ~ SPH colleague wanted to go for a drink and chill out so ask Andy to plan, Andy jio Joe and ask him to plan as we were Bz at the store. Joe had plan to go some pub near Golden Mill and was already there but upon recieving her SMS stating she already vomited i knew i had to go dwn and had a look.. Not sure if wad i was tinking also.. When we reached, saw her walking back and forth wif her handphone by her ear. Not knowing who the other party was but sure was a guy.. She seems alrite even thou she has vomited but is she? Place was packed and we had to wait outside for sits, i was looking at her frm a distance she did not notice me. When we had sits, it was beside the pool table... wat better sits to have not only tat we dun have enough sits -.-' .. Had a couple of drink wif my colleague and they had to go off. Hail a cab for them and waited like 10mins for it. Both of them were like Lobster lor.. so red. Lolz, if they would stay on.. Tml sure cant go to work. Lolz. Nvr really [-iii-] her the whole nite juz wanted to make sure she was alrite. When i reach hme the uncle told me *yi loo fa* means 168 .. cos the cab fare was $16.80 .. Lolz, i promised her not to buy anymore 4D so i called her up and ask her if i could cos i respected her. If i did not the call will not be made. After hanging, the few sms she reply me cut me deep in my heart. If it was last time de me..i'll ............ Argh, hungry cos dinner was not really feeling, Cooked U-don wif golden mushroom and egg.. Yummy ~ Opps gonna b fat liao . lolz, watched Bleach and Naruto and than head to bed.. Checked her profile but had change song .. no more *Kiss you Goodbye* Haizz... when i wanna hear the song.. Blaaaaaa.. checked the time .. almost 6am @@' #72 ... abit more but tis few days not free to play.. cos River ang bao gonna end soon and the accounts stuff got to be out. Had agree wif Joe today go to the pub tonite.. but haiz so much stuff need to be done. Let's juz see ba..

Last 2 days.. will u go dwn?

Yesterday was raining cats and dogs, were u caught in the rain? I sure did .. my store was leaking water. Not 1 but both store.. Seems like gonna rain today also.. Sales was bad, not only tat one of my worker had to leave early. Blaaa.. If she told me yesterday i would find a replacement liao. Hump.. make me stay at store.. Today same case.. Will be at store mending .. Cant run around.. Sei Bei Sad lor .. Be superviser like tat de mer? More like Sell Newspaper + Sai Kang Warrior.. Again watch fireworks alone..this few days end abit early cos no ppl liao. Haiz.. 2 more days .. abit more than can relax abit liao.Went orange after tat wif Andy,Quan .. Quan told me come at 12.30 in the end 1.15 than reach.. Luckily last nite was juz a pubbing session .. if was clubbing i'll be dead.. dead tired liao still went for a drink, shld have juz stayed hme and rest.. Btw, i hit #70... Lolz abit more.. juz abit more..

14 not free, 12 also not free.. when will u be free for me..

#47 done, #48 is tough..Argh..Yesterday for the 1st time alot of things happen.. I buck up some courage to do some things which i nvr will do cos i dunt wanna miss another chance but ... in the end nthing happen. Izzit smthing gd or bad? U decide.. Wanted to nibble her ear but she struggle.. in the end became a bite.. ouch.. hurt me more than hurt her. Really hope last nite nvr ended.. Cos deep down inside i can feel she wans to give me a chance .. juz abit more time .. abit more.. Held her by her waist, hugged her but nvr kiss her cos respect her. To her, a kiss is like a biggy which ... I duno which era she belongs to. Lolz. If time permit.. let me remain forever in last nite. For some reason, she dare not look to me eye to eye.. really wonder if she is scare i'll hurt her or she is waiting for her Mr.Rite.
After Dbl O went over to the famous Ba Ku Teh to have supper.. while eatting, a catfight broke out.. but no torn clothes or big fight.. juz afew kick, punch, pulling of hair.. than went off .. bleach .. Mei You Mao ar ~ .. last time catfight was soooo nice to watch.. now so disappointing.. lolz.

Can i brg u out on V-dae ~?

Today river ang bao was not as Bz.. tink business will remain same for last few days.. Been playing free cell since i got back hme.. now hitting no. 39 .. once i complete 40 i go slp.. tml muz wake up early do some accounts stuff.. argh.. headach..

Do u miz me?

#4 of free-cell done.. now for #5 .. argh.. 2 more hrs go work liao .. than work till nite .. Nvr msg her the whole day cos had lots of work to do .. this few weeks been bz at river ang bao... Juz tar han abit more ...but after tat back to normal life .. but still alot of stuff need to done.. Nxt tue, which lucky gal will accompany me? Or shld i juz go on cruise and try my luck?

#1 - 100 can i do it?

Bad day last nite at river ang bao. Sales was bad due to the rain, close both store early and was totally drenched. Wanted to go hme have a hot shower and slp but i did not, i allow myself to get hurt again.

'Void' is the Nxt word to be ban in my dictionary. Btw 'Whatever' is the 1st.

Been tinking where to brg her for 'V'-day and wat to get for her. Wanna make it a memorable one since she did not really had been in a real relationship .. but i dunt have much time to tink cos have to work and rest of the time i have left is for missing her. How? Day by day 'V'-day draws closer and time is ticking by the second. Muz make a decision soon..Arghh.. giving me a headach. Bla.. hate tis feeling. After last nite, i did not have anything left for me to worry. No need to go to any fancy resturant nor lavish gifts cos wat she needs wasnt tat. She has told me wad she truely needs ... and it wasnt me.

i gave u my 101% and it wasnt enough.

Friendster Horoscope for February 5, 2006
Scorpio (Oct 23 - Nov 21)

The Bottom Line
There is a boldness inside of you. Channel it now, and you'll get what you deserve.

In Detail
For days now -- okay, maybe weeks -- you've been going on and on about your new sweetheart. Now it's time to take Mr. Right or Ms. Wonderful to face the ultimate test: meeting the gang. If you're especially proud of them -- and how could you not be -- show up just a few minutes late and make a grand entrance. They don't
call it 'fashionably late' for nothing.

Hmm... izzit meant for us? Hehe, Both of us are Scorpio wor.. =X
Today went to suntec crystal jade for dinner.. cos chu 7 ma.. Ren re. muz go lao yu shen..But after dinner rush back to store to help out.. The rashes on my hand is not getting any better.. argh..alot of small dots on my hands ..and getting more and more each day. Went for supper wif my parents after work. Reach hme slack, watch discovery channel .. the doggy so cuteee... than bath.. wanna get online but com abit screw up wif the connection.. played free-cell afew times than fix the problem .. bla 4+ liao .. tml muz wake up early .. how many more days can i take b4 i collapse. Have not been slping well pass week.. yesterday my face cramp.. y? Hehe .. =p

Lai ar.. Buy newspaper free ice-cream

1/2 hr ago i was blogging .. complaining why i went to Checkers (Under 1 roof) but now i wonder wat if i nvr go. Ouch.. I juz cfm wif her on the phone, 1stly she is not drunk (tat is the MAIN point) 2ndly she is giving me a chance.. Am i dreaming? If so, let me slp forever and not wake up.

M: "So wat does 'K' means?"
C: "Means I giving u a chance lor."

I rest my case. Tonite i'll slp well for tml i muz have the strength to face new challanges ahead. I have no idea wat lies ahead of us.

U may win this battle but u have not won the war yet.

76 days has pass since i 1st met her . Her choice remain un-change and nvr did i took advantage of any situation like in BlackJack or Drinking. I rather have an honest answer and.... I did. No idea wat will happen frm now on but wish her all the best in her love-life and hopefully she can be wif someone she love. Today can dunt go dwn River Ang Bao but i'll juz go dwn and work since my plan has been shattered. Occupy myself wif work is one way i stop myself frm tinking so much. Once work is done... my mind will play tricks on me again. Today is Qi b-day gonna sms her now.. but tonite.. not sure if going dwn or not. Dun wanna see her for today, my heart is already hurting even while typing out this entry. Juz wanna let it cool dwn for my side.

This path is clear, there is no turning back now.

Last nite went to Qi place after work wif Andy. Saw her again but did not exchange muz words. Was kinda tired and wanted to go hme but went over knowing she will b there. Izzit me or i am foolish knowing 1sided love cant last and best part is i nvr really express myself to her. Dunt wan to scare her away is another reason for not expressing. This morning we were suppose go out for movie + dinner cos i won her in BlackJack but she wans to void it cos she has something on. =/ Understanding me let it be voided and was happy for nthing. She knows she got program today yet wanna bet wif me.. is she playing ard wif me? Haiz.. Today went to SSDC for my basic and .. dunt ask. Re-test is on the 22/o2 10.30am. Better study nxt time round.Bla... she is currently at Dbl O now, testing if she was drunk i called her Dear in most of the msg, no strong reaction frm her thou. Means ?

A. she is drunk
B. she is giving me a chance
C. she is playing wif my heart
D. ALL of the ABOVE.

Well, i duno which ans is the rite answer. Let's hope she give me an answer after she see this blog. Tml we are suppose to go out but if she is drunk or hang over or tired than.. no point forcing her to come out. Been waiting to go out wif her since..HaiZ. Izzit something so hard to ask for? I mean go out as fren also cannot mer ? Tml is her last day of holiday also.. Let's juz pray okay?

Fail my basic, fail to get her but nvr giving up..

At last a meal since yesterday nite and was treated by "her". She seems moody today.. reason unknown. When i saw her, her face was BLACK. Yes, it was real black and kinda scary in a way. Again wanna tok to her but there is an invisible barrier between us, cant see it but can sure feel it. Or is she avoiding having a conversation wif me? Was feeling cranky cos was tired after long day.. Been watching fireworks since 27.o1.o6 but nvr wif the person i like. Haiz, this is not the only sad thing, On my way back something cock up at work and had to fly dwn all the way to woodlands to settle it and guess wat, i juz got hme. B4 u know it i need to go work again. Bleach ! Long hours and lack of slp. Now i know the importance of slp.. Arghh..Juz remember tml got my driving basic.. better pass even thou nvr study.. ><'

Will u be there to support me ?